Exposed
Writing on a blog makes you feel so exposed and vulnerable. It kind of sucks because, anything you have posted or write about is there forever. Your opinions could be taken the wrong way, or people can think that you think a certain way about something, when actually you don’t feel that way at all.
That sounds kind of funny right, seeing as how it’s a personal blog, how can someone think I feel a certain way about something without me actually feeling that way? It’s the inferences that people make about a post. I might not express or state how I feel about something but just by writing about that subject, people might think certain things. For example, just because I’ve written a few posts on contact lenses and eyelashes, people might think that it’s the only thing I care about and that I’m superficial. Also, I could feel a myriad of different emotions about a certain topic, and choose to write about only one feeling that I have regarding that topic. For example: anyone can look at my previous post and think a lot of different things. They can think that I’m healthy, unhealthy, stupid, smart, insecure, secure…lots of different things! Which adjectives are closer to the truth about how I really am? Maybe both. I believe that my weight is a healthy weight although my diet is not healthy. I believe that I want to be healthy and that it would be a good thing if I thought a little bit more about diet and exercise. Due to the fact that I was writing about weight, I decided to be overly critical about my own body, with descriptions and photos that might help the reader who doesn’t know me personally. I could have just posted a picture of myself, but I didn’t feel comfortable doing that at this point. This doesn’t mean that I hate the way I currently am, or that I compare myself to celebrities or that my post was the only way that I feel about my body. So, that’s an example of how I may only post about one aspect of how I feel.
What goes behind a blog post? The answer: lots of Google searches. I write about anything that captures my fancy, and I often Google images of what I’m writing about to give a better visual to readers. For example, I never actually coveted Michelle Obama’s arms before. I did notice that in comparison to other First Ladies, she looked a lot more toned and fit, but I didn’t have her picture on my bedroom wall with the words “dream arms” scribbled over them or anything. I Googled (yes, Googled is a verb) “toned arms” and that is what popped up and I thought, “hey, she does have some pretty strong looking arms”, so bam, she became part of my post. Have I ever noticed Mischa Barton’s arms before? Nope, not at all. I just wanted to describe how I feel my arms don’t look that way, and so I Googled “skinny arms” and her picture popped up. So, there you go…secrets behind how I post.
Why did I write this post/what’s the point? I guess because I realized that, people judge you. Which is both a good thing and a bad thing. Of course, I write about what’s on my mind and it is a reflection or insight into my mind and how I think about things but sometimes things can be viewed in a different way than I intended. I also wanted you to know why I write certain things, or how I go about it.
