Blues
Sometimes I really do feel the blues. I don't know what it is or what triggers it, but I try and do all the things that I mention in my post before: https://www.queensharin.com/2018/02/beat-blues.html but I don't know, sometimes, it still doesn't work for me.
Writing helps, I suppose. I hope. I really love life. No question about it we have a beautiful situation going on here (just a disclaimer). It's the little things, it's all good. But today - I felt the blues for a bit. Not all day... I have written before about being "extreme" as a person - https://www.queensharin.com/2011/02/extremist.html but lately I just feel my mood fluctuates too much. This morning I was jumping up and down and playing Bollywood music and doing bhangra and squats to Londono Patolla and then by 930pm I was sad and getting into bed because I didn't know what else to do. Anyway it's midnight now so I clearly got out of that little funk and tried to cheer up cuz it's the weekend, yo!
I think it's social media, or getting too absorbed in "tasks" I tend to focus on "things I need to do" a lot and none of it is really something I need to do in reality. Laundry, dishes, prepping for something, grocery shopping, vacuuming. Of course those things need to be done but my place is pretty freaking clean, I have enough clothes to skip laundry, food, etc. It's just tasks I feel I need to do when it can wait till like.. Monday night or something. I can find it really hard to relax. I feel like your everyday millennial saying this - and obviously anxiety is a real and serious thing not just a "kids these days" thing but it's not like I have any form of crippling anxiety.
I guess it's just stress? Stress about what you're going to do in life, whether you'll be able to survive (financially), whether you'll thrive (career wise), whether you'll live somewhere you love or somewhere you dislike, whether you'll be with the person you want to be with, whether you'll have medical issues you'll have to fight/suffer through, whether the people you love will survive n thrive, whether humans will even survive without ruining our world in some sort of mass self destructive event. Which means it's all the more reason to NOT be stressed right now because heck you don't have that much time left to enjoy yourself anyway lol.
Anyway, I just thought I'd post and be honest, that if you're feeling this way you're not alone. Also that it is hard work sometimes to be in a good headspace. Practicing mindfulness, trying to be calm and appreciative, not being absorbed by technology, getting into nature, working out and raising your endorphins, eating healthy, watching positive things or keeping positive people in your life, bettering yourself in some shape or form. They're all conscious and difficult decisions. It's not easy, but do or do not there is no try right? It's all too easy to be distracted from this, to mindlessly follow those around you seeking instant gratification. Focus on the big picture.
Goodnight!
Writing helps, I suppose. I hope. I really love life. No question about it we have a beautiful situation going on here (just a disclaimer). It's the little things, it's all good. But today - I felt the blues for a bit. Not all day... I have written before about being "extreme" as a person - https://www.queensharin.com/2011/02/extremist.html but lately I just feel my mood fluctuates too much. This morning I was jumping up and down and playing Bollywood music and doing bhangra and squats to Londono Patolla and then by 930pm I was sad and getting into bed because I didn't know what else to do. Anyway it's midnight now so I clearly got out of that little funk and tried to cheer up cuz it's the weekend, yo!
I think it's social media, or getting too absorbed in "tasks" I tend to focus on "things I need to do" a lot and none of it is really something I need to do in reality. Laundry, dishes, prepping for something, grocery shopping, vacuuming. Of course those things need to be done but my place is pretty freaking clean, I have enough clothes to skip laundry, food, etc. It's just tasks I feel I need to do when it can wait till like.. Monday night or something. I can find it really hard to relax. I feel like your everyday millennial saying this - and obviously anxiety is a real and serious thing not just a "kids these days" thing but it's not like I have any form of crippling anxiety.
I guess it's just stress? Stress about what you're going to do in life, whether you'll be able to survive (financially), whether you'll thrive (career wise), whether you'll live somewhere you love or somewhere you dislike, whether you'll be with the person you want to be with, whether you'll have medical issues you'll have to fight/suffer through, whether the people you love will survive n thrive, whether humans will even survive without ruining our world in some sort of mass self destructive event. Which means it's all the more reason to NOT be stressed right now because heck you don't have that much time left to enjoy yourself anyway lol.
Anyway, I just thought I'd post and be honest, that if you're feeling this way you're not alone. Also that it is hard work sometimes to be in a good headspace. Practicing mindfulness, trying to be calm and appreciative, not being absorbed by technology, getting into nature, working out and raising your endorphins, eating healthy, watching positive things or keeping positive people in your life, bettering yourself in some shape or form. They're all conscious and difficult decisions. It's not easy, but do or do not there is no try right? It's all too easy to be distracted from this, to mindlessly follow those around you seeking instant gratification. Focus on the big picture.
Goodnight!
