Aloha!
Hi!
It's me! Sharin, Sharin Saxena, Miss Saxena, Queen Sharin, whatever you know me as.
Yes, I'm still alive. I'm... enjoying my life. For now! I think it's been hard to write in this blog because I've begun censoring myself. I can't write about topic A because I don't know everything about it, I can't write about feminism because I do things that "oppose" that theory, I can't write about my opinions on things because someone will say something or because in 1 year I might not feel that way.
But, so what! Nothing! Who cares?! It's not only that... everything is just so public nowadays. I don't know if I want my thoughts and opinions and girlish dreams or problems (and now I would say womanly problems) to be out in the world.
I think that before I wrote this blog from the third person perspective of "a young girl living in this world trying to do her own thing" and that's not really me anymore. I feel wiser, I still make bad decisions in life but I'm doing it with my eyes wide open. I think that a lot that is happening in my life is private. I can't share it, I won't share it, I don't want other people to know how I think or what I do or what I feel anymore.
I can't decide if this means that I'm freeing myself or trapping myself. Was writing my thoughts and random opinions on this blog freeing? Or is being private and having my thoughts to myself freeing?
I guess the main point is I won't write on here unless I'm being authentic and lately it hasn't felt very authentic.
It's me! Sharin, Sharin Saxena, Miss Saxena, Queen Sharin, whatever you know me as.
Yes, I'm still alive. I'm... enjoying my life. For now! I think it's been hard to write in this blog because I've begun censoring myself. I can't write about topic A because I don't know everything about it, I can't write about feminism because I do things that "oppose" that theory, I can't write about my opinions on things because someone will say something or because in 1 year I might not feel that way.
But, so what! Nothing! Who cares?! It's not only that... everything is just so public nowadays. I don't know if I want my thoughts and opinions and girlish dreams or problems (and now I would say womanly problems) to be out in the world.
I think that before I wrote this blog from the third person perspective of "a young girl living in this world trying to do her own thing" and that's not really me anymore. I feel wiser, I still make bad decisions in life but I'm doing it with my eyes wide open. I think that a lot that is happening in my life is private. I can't share it, I won't share it, I don't want other people to know how I think or what I do or what I feel anymore.
I can't decide if this means that I'm freeing myself or trapping myself. Was writing my thoughts and random opinions on this blog freeing? Or is being private and having my thoughts to myself freeing?
I guess the main point is I won't write on here unless I'm being authentic and lately it hasn't felt very authentic.
