Lingering fear
Ok so this is a random short post because I’m going to crash soon and have to wake up at 5am but…one of my lingering, nagging fears (so not a fear that’s constantly there but a mellower more brooding fear) that pops up every so often is the fear that my close friends will eventually turn on me for reasons unbeknownst to me. Maybe I’m just paranoid. You see it happen on 90210 or Gossip Girl all the time, where someone out there is out to get you and all of a sudden your boyfriend, your friends, even your parents turn against you and you have no way of telling everyone what the truth is; or you tell them and they just don’t believe you. Ah there you go that’s my fear: telling someone the truth and them not believing you.
I just think it’s horrible… – I don’t mean telling someone that you can just write off like ok whatever they don’t believe you - their loss, I mean someone who you deeply and truly care about like your parents or your really close friends. I mean in this day and age where you have sites like “The Dirty” where people can say anything and everything they want about you without repercussions it just seems like it’s something that could happen easily.
Anyone out there can say anything about you, and it’s true that your worst enemies are the ones you don’t even know about. Some random guy or girl might say some random thing about you and there’s nothing that you can do to stop them. If you’re someone that is actually friendly and outgoing, chances are people are going to believe the random guy and believe effed up rumours about you (well to you they’re effed up but they might be something small and believable). It’s just so WEIRD and not fair. There’s nothing you can do to protect yourself and you just have to hope and believe that people you love and that “know” you will know what kind of person you are. It’s not just about rumours, but say you’re being possessed by the Devil or something and you tell someone and instead of believing you they think you’re mental?! I used to tell my guy friend all the time to remember to take me seriously if I ever say I’m being possessed. Like legit conversation.
Anyways I guess in short one thing that I want to tell people is that looks can be deceiving. Things aren’t always what they seem.
