Hard to Write
Sometime’s it’s hard to write what I really think or feel. I try and keep this blog about my opinions on subjects vs my personal life and what’s going on in my life, but even then it’s hard for me to put something out there knowing that “cool” people might be reading this blog and think I’m crazy lol. Even though it’s a personal blog… writing makes you feel naked and some people come on here just to hate or scoff I think. I just hope that people visit this blog and read not because they know me and want to know what I think but because there is something that I write that they can relate to.
That is all I want to do, share and relate with people and hopefully make them feel something or at least make them feel that they are not alone out there. I just like making people feel and knowing that sometimes I distract people from their lives. That gives me insane pleasure. Everyone has hardships, everyone has insecurities and there is always more to people than meets the eye.
Everyone hates at some point but something that I do is I try and think of each person as a kid. I imagine what they must have been like as a kid and that they get hurt as well and just because someone like… Katrina Kaif (who I occasionally hate on in my head out of jealousy but secretly love) is super beautiful and popular now that doesn’t mean that their life is perfect or that they don’t cry themselves to sleep every once in a while.
When I was made fun of I used to think that if people really knew who I was and came over to my house one day and met my family and saw how I was at home they would never bully me again because they would see how much my family loved me and even if they didn’t like ME PERSONALLY they would not want to make someone else’s parents sad because at the end of the day they have parents too and would not want their parents to be upset. I guess this blog is kind of my way of inviting people in… that if you really knew me there is no way that you could hate me…so I try to be as honest and open as I can in my posts, even though I get scared sometimes and think that people are going to think I’m nuts!
