Sunday 6 November 2011

Hard to Write

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Sometime’s it’s hard to write what I really think or feel.  I try and keep this blog about my opinions on subjects vs my personal life and what’s going on in my life, but even then it’s hard for me to put something out there knowing that “cool” people might be reading this blog and think I’m crazy lol. Even though it’s a personal blog… writing makes you feel naked and some people come on here just to hate or scoff I think.  I just hope that people visit this blog and read not because they know me and want to know what I think but because there is something that I write that they can relate to. 
That is all I want to do, share and relate with people and hopefully make them feel something or at least make them feel that they are not alone out there.  I just like making people feel and knowing that sometimes I distract people from their lives.  That gives me insane pleasure.  Everyone has hardships, everyone has insecurities and there is always more to people than meets the eye.
Everyone hates at some point but something that I do is I try and think of each person as a kid.  I imagine what they must have been like as a kid and that they get hurt as well and just because someone like… Katrina Kaif (who I occasionally hate on in my head out of jealousy but secretly love) is super beautiful and popular now that doesn’t mean that their life is perfect or that they don’t cry themselves to sleep every once in a while.
When I was made fun of I used to think that if people really knew who I was and came over to my house one day and met my family and saw how I was at home they would never bully me again because they would see how much my family loved me and even if they didn’t like ME PERSONALLY they would not want to make someone else’s parents sad because at the end of the day they have parents too and would not want their parents to be upset.  I guess this blog is kind of my way of inviting people in… that if you really knew me there is no way that you could hate me…so I try to be as honest and open as I can in my posts, even though I get scared sometimes and think that people are going to think I’m nuts!
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Saturday 5 November 2011

Loss/Family/Time… NEED MORE TIME!

There is no flow to this blog post whatsoever.  You’ve been warned. And this is pretty personal.  To those of you who get this blog emailed to you - - - you might not want to read it.  It’s not funny, it’s not anything other than me needing to write and expel my thoughts.
I have witnessed parents say good bye to their children (which I think is one of the most tragic and unnatural things in life) and children say good bye to their parents forever. I have been to many funerals, seen hearts break, seen dreams shattered, seen many lives stopped before they should have been and have felt the pain of loss.  Those images never leave you, they are imprinted in me forever.
Death is a natural part of life, but it’s not something you can ever prepare for, or get over.  I’m terrified to lose people.  Like when they’re gone… they’re gone.  You can’t call them, you can’t see them, you can’t… hear them, laugh with them nothing.  They’re just wiped off the face of this Earth and we’re left with nothing.  Pictures, videos, it’s all nothing.. just memories and I’ve said this before: It is in the complexities, powers and failures of a human’s memory that I sense an omniscient all knowing God.  Our failed and flawed memory is a blessing, for if I could remember every moment, I would live each day reliving them.  Meaning…  If our memories were perfect… I think I’d go mental because I would literally just relive each moment that I’ve ever had.
I want to cherish the time that I have with family.  I mess up… we all mess up.  Like when I buy McDonald’s and come home and realize my mom’s cooked chicken curry… like hello… what am I thinking?  I’m buying some crap food rather than eating my MOM’S cooking?  Seriously am I retarded?  Or when I sit with a few friends shooting the shit at a restaurant and I’ve been out of the house from.. well firstly I came home at 230am the night before from a friend’s party left at 7am for work then came back at 1230am the next day after a dinner but anyway – shootin the shit at a restaurant with people who I probably won’t care about in 10 years or less and meanwhile my mom’s at home waiting for me to come back because she dressed up in a Halloween costume for the first time in her life and she wanted to show me cuz she was excited.  Like seriously am I retarded?  Do you guys ever mess up like this?  Do you guys think about it?  I think about things all the time. 
Opportunity cost is my biggest problem.  I can’t figure it out.  At some point you have to branch out and do your own thang and cut the umbilical cord and let loose maybe move countries and then… on the other hand I want to spend time with people that I care about because you don’t get to spend time with them forever.  I pray every day for the safety of my friends and family… I can’t lose anyone I really can’t.  I care and love everyone in my life so so much.
Everything is all connected for me… death, guilt, loss.  I think everyone is going to die so fast…if not from a disease or illness than a natural disaster or a freak murder/shooting or a car crash or a plane crash or whatever there are like fifty million ways you can die early that it makes the “died peacefully while sleeping in bed” option seem far fetched and dismally grim.  I feel like life is just rushing by, I’m being swept by the current and all I want to do is find a branch to hold on to to try and stop myself from moving forward.  I can’t add anyone in my life because that’s just one person too many that I’d worry about.  You don’t understand… the amount that I love the people who I love – it’s an insane amount.  It’s insane.  I truly and madly and with all my heart love people. 
Kirpa is a word that really resonates with me.  We are all here by God’s grace and blessing and if you aren’t thanking God for being here every single day of your life – you should sort out your priorities. 
Its true what they say – youth is wasted on the young.  I feel like so many young people… have everything going for them right in front of them and they waste it on… stupid shit.  They waste time on stupid ass shit… and before they know it this will all be gone and I feel like they don’t cherish the moment.  But maybe that’s just what youth is – the innocence of thinking that you have your whole life in front of you, that nothing is going to go wrong, that bad things happen to other people, that you’re invincible.
I just want my family to be settled and happy.  As much as I joke about how I never want to be in a relationship… I do want to grow old with someone, I DO BELIEVE IN MONAGAMY, I do want children very badly I want my children (God willing if I have any) to know my parents because I KNOW they would make AWESOME grandparents and I loved my grandparents and would want my parents to be grandparents too.
I just want everyone to live a very long, healthy and happy life.  Is that so much to ask God?  As for myself – I don’t fear death personally (in fact if I ever left while fighting for injustice know that I left happy)… I just fear things happening to other people or the effect that my leaving would have.  I give myself great importance in the role I play in my family lol I feel like everything would fall apart if not for me because in my house I’m kind of the jokester, the catalyst for things, I push people, I push the status quo, I entertain and most especially I try and look out for my younger brother,my sisters, my parents because I feel like I’m the most street smart.  I feel like as long as I’m around I can take care of them through any kind of scenario.
I just think about things way too much like… I think it’s the news.. the news depresses me thinking about all the problems in the world and I’m always on the internet and looking at pictures from earthquakes, tsunami’s, bomb blasts whatever’s going on… and it’s just so insane like we live in the most messed up world where people care more about Birkin’s than 2 year olds dying in the street.  :(

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Sunday 23 October 2011

Whoa They’re Hot.

K so I HAVEN’T DANCED IN FOREVER!  It’s been um… a year maybe.  Dancing is my THANG.. I’ve been dancing since I was a little girl – mainly Bollywood stuff – copying my older sister who was copying Madhuri…so you could say I indirectly learnt from the great Madhuri Dixit herself haha.. then of course Aishwarya came along and whooo hooo I just kept on learning their songs and the only song of Hrithik’s that I learnt was Ek Pal Ka Jeena because every song after that he just… became a Prabhu Deva duplicate and that’s just way out of my league.

SO ANYWAY – I haven’t danced in forever.  Been too busy, been too…down and out.  I haven’t been able to attend my friend Shai’s classes as my schedule is just wack so I am doing it the old school way and going to learn some routines off the internet (Youtube is my friend).  I HOPE to post some videos up of me dancing soonish…like within the month hopefully!  If you haven’t already checked out my youtube page it’s http://www.youtube.com/user/queensharin#g/u

Ntn crazy, feel free to subscribe lol.  So the reason why I want to upload vids of me dancing is 1.) because it’ll be fun and 2.) I like to perform – dancing in my room and learning routines off of youtube videos is cool and all but I’ll probably put more effort into it if I know that people are watching me!  So just an fyi – I suck at choreography and I’m not the best dancer – I just like to do it…so everything I post will be like my attempt at someone else’s routine.

THE REASON WHY I TITLED THIS BLOG POST WHOA THEY’RE HOT:

They’re really quite good.. and I like that they actually have some MEAT on them:

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I think belly dancers should have something to shake – there’s a famous belly dancer named Didem (youtube her) and she’s reallyyy good as well and hot as eff but I don’t quite enjoy it as much because she’s got this model thin body.  It’s great for bikini photoshoots but not so great for sensual belly dancing. 

Watchu think?  Fab or EW FLAB?

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Why The Lion King Is So Awesome

There aren’t any annoying humans in it.  Seriously aren’t humans just so annoying sometimes?
The opening sunrise. 
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AMAZING.  AAAAAA SHABANYAAA or whatever they say...  I just get goosebumps.  It really sets the tone for the film and lets everyone know that we ain’t in Kansas no more!  We’re not in lil ol’ America, this isn’t a movie about distressed women who wait for a prince… I mean when in the world does any Disney movie start off in Zulu?! Or any language that’s not English?  Right away, the opening lyrics transports you to a new world… I have goosebumps right now thinking about it.  (I think the Zulu language/African feel of the movie only worked because it was a movie based on animals… Disney would never have let this fly if it was based on an African human family…)
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Scar.  He’s evil, through and through. He wants to be King, he kills to be King.  This is something that has ACTUALLY happened in this world over and over again, and it teaches kids that 1.) not everyone is good 2.) lust for power is a factor in evil 3.) sometimes there is no redeeming quality in a person.  If this movie were to be made now we’d probably see Scar being abused as he’s younger or something to “make sense” of why he’s so evil.  Like why do we really need the psycho babble, POINT IS dude is motha effin evil.  Scar is also quite hilarious – his dry tone and sarcastic attitude crack me up.  I’ve used his lines in real life many a time! (esp: “I’m surroundeddd by idiots")
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Mufasa.  His speech after saving Simba and Nalaa from the Elephant graveyard was amazing.  It sets the tone for the whole movie and when Simba steps in his fathers giant footprint…it literally shows us that Simba will never fill in his father’s footsteps and that that is something that is important to Simba.  Mufasa comes across as a very wise, respected person – someone that anyone should aspire to be.
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Mufasa’s death.  It was so real… and so sad… and it didn’t sugar coat anything.  They really did this scene so well!  “Long Live the King” and then Scar letting go…Mufasa flying back.. cut to Simba screaming… :(  so sad.  Then…to shake off the depressing mood….
TIMON AND PUMBAA!!!  Timon is seriously one of my most favorite characters in any movie!  His sarcasm, his wit, his dry little voice.  ADORABS.  Pumbaa is just a cute little fart.. love him.
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Their philosophy. “Bad things happen and you can’t do anything about it right? Wrong! When the world turns its back on you, you turn your back on the world.”  Hakuna Matata! 
Later on Simba uses this on Naala and tells her “Sometimes bad things happen and you can’t do anything about it, so why worry?” To which she responds – BECAUSE IT’S YOUR RESPONSIBILITY!  And that there in is the whole POINT of this movie.  You have to be responsible and you have to fulfill the responsibilities of your FAMILY.  Simba tells Naala that she is starting to sound like his father to which she replies “good, at least one of us is”.  I was like ooooohhhhh good one Naala! lol.  I feel like most guys nowadays are like Simba – shirking their responsibilites, they have a chip on their shoulder when it comes to their dads (in Simba’s case it’s a kind of resentment that he’s not around “you said you’d always be there for me” he yells to the Mufasa spirit in the sky).  I don’t see a lot of guys my age nowadays strive to be like their fathers or feel a sense of commitment to their family, seems like all they want is to go out, get laid, get drunk, make money, be respected by their friends and peers– they need a Naala and Rafiki to bump some sense into them.  Back in the day I think children felt more of a responsibility to their family.  Anyway I digress…
The Lion King teaches you about friendship (Timon saying to Simba “If it’s important to you, we’re with you till the end), it’s about being more than who you think you are (Remember who you are, you are my son and the one true king…Mufasa also says “You have forgotten who you are and so forgotten me”…Rafiki also tells Simba “He lives in you”.) – Simba just isn’t SIMBA, he’s SIMBA – SON OF MUFASA, it’s a very un-American like concept for a movie, especially a Disney movie.  In America or the new western world we emphasize a lot about finding ourselves, being independent, being unique, and the Lion King really focuses on family, fulfilling your duty and responsibility to your family, stating that you’re not alone – you are who you are because of your family.  It’s a very “Asian” concept.
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The sequence where Rafiki hits Simba on the head and Simba’s like ow what was that for? and Rafiki goes – it doesn’t matter, it’s in the past!  He totally flipped Simba’s newfound philosophy and Simba realized that he was being silly and he couldn’t continue running away… This whole sequence was hilarious: Rafiki: “The question is.. whoooooo are you?” and then Simba’s like “I think you’re confused” and Rafiki goes “I’m not the one who’s confused YOUUU dont even know WHO U ARE” in his accent lol gosh I just love it.
I hope you guys enjoyed my analysis on the best movie ever The Lion King… feel free to comment and tell me what your fav part in this movie is!  Ooh and I left out the hyena’s only because they don’t really teach us anything but they are a super hilarious part of the movie and they do make the movie awesome so – little shout out for Whoopi Goldberg and crew.

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Wednesday 5 October 2011

An Important Rant.

Why is it that death allows people to see someone for their true potential and WORTH?!?!?  It should start before someone dies!!

I’m sick of “kids” or young people in general being so cruel to other kids.  There are enough illnesses and accidents happening in the world without a parent needing their child to die because of a bully or out of jealousy.

It shouldn’t take DEATH for people to bond together.  We should ALWAYS be there as a community for each other, we should ALWAYS respect and recognize the potential and worth someone else has.  We should ALWAYS encourage each other and HELP each other.

I’m SICK of people talking sh*t behind people’s back, posting hate comments anonymously or posting stuff on websites about how people are “sluts”, “whores”, etc etc.

Murder is extreme, you completely take away someone’s life…like it’s WORTHLESS… but bullying and hating each other is the first step in throwing away someone’s worth!!!!!!!!!!! 

I’m disgusted at what my community has become.  ((By my community I mean people my age (all ethnicities)as well as Punjabi people from Vancouver/Surrey, and women))

All I know is that a majority of people who comment on how worthy someone was of living (after they have died) would probably have hated on that same person had they continued to live.  Think about it.  You know it’s true.

I’ve had so many friends who are simply trying to live their lives and try and make something of themselves and follow their dreams come up to me and tell me about all of these people who are hating on them and bringing them down.  If you’re from an ethnic minority, or you’re a WOMAN (which is a rare thing for some countries nowadays) please think twice before hating on someone else.  We get hated on enough as it is from the world… please don’t do it to each other.

Value human life, value each other, support each other, stop adding hits to stupid websites that serve no purpose other than to degrade and humiliate people, and just BE A BETTER PERSON!!!!

Just remember, you should ALWAYS defend someone who isn’t there to defend themselves!

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Saturday 1 October 2011

Summer’s Over

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Summer always makes me sad.  I think it’s sad because I love that this season is associated with sun, the beach, good times, bbq’s, drinks, hanging out with friends and I love all of those things SO much - - but then at the same time I know that it’s not going to last and it’s going to be way too short so it can be a little bit bittersweet.  More sweet than bitter though :).
I had an INSANELY amazingly great summer!  I lost a few things (one of them being my ipod – but I try not to own anything I can’t afford to lose so luckily I got a newer, nicer red touch nano), I met the most amazing, fun loving people from all over the world and I cannot wait to go visit them, and I got to experience some things that I’ve always wanted to!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like I’ve gained so much and grown so much as a person!  Cheers to summer, good times, good friends, life experiences and remember: any time above ground is a good day!

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Saturday 3 September 2011

Someone’s comment on Youtube.

I'll be honest, if you get offended by vulgar comments, you probably shouldn't be uploading to YouTube. No offense but once you put yourself in the public eye, one of the eyes staring at you will be perverted.
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LOL SOOO TRUE!!!!!!  Genius comment.
If you can’t take the heat you should get out of the kitchen isn’t it?  :)
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Monday 29 August 2011

An Old Sufi Tale

"One afternoon, Nasruddin and his friend were sitting in a cafe, drinking tea and talking about life and love.  His friend asked: 'How come you never married?'

'Well,' said Nasruddin, 'to tell you the truth, I spend my youth looking for the perfect woman. In Cairo I met a beautiful and intelligent woman, but she was unkind. Then in Baghdad, I met a woman who was a wonderful and generous soul, but we had no common interests. One woman after another would seem just right, but there would always be something missing. Then one day, I met her; beautiful, intelligent, generous and kind. We had very much in common. In fact, she was perfect!'

'So, what happened?' asked Nasruddin's friend, 'Why didn't you marry her?'

Nasruddin sipped his tea reflectively. 'Well,' he replied, 'it's really the sad story of my life.... It seemed that she was looking for the perfect man...' "

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I’ve always loved this tale.  I feel like a lot of people nowadays are always looking for the next best thing and they hold out waiting for it, or once they’ve gotten something they are never totally satisfied.

They have an ipad, but they want the ipad 2, they don’t even bother getting the iphone 4 because they’re waiting for the iphone 5.  You get the picture.

I hope this tale above won’t be mine :|  In some ways I am very, very loyal – I had the same mp3 player for over 5 years, I’ve had the same dinky camera since 2006 (even though I work at one of the leading electronics retailers)… So I’m pretty loyal, but yeah it’s def a big problem in today’s society where we’re so used to instant gratification and always getting the newer model.  I guess that’s why there’s so much cheating (adultery) in this world - - - it’s for the same reason that we’re all in so much debt  - Instant gratification/never thinking about the future.

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Tuesday 23 August 2011

Don’t Sweat The Small Stuff

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I don’t want to say that I constantly think of death but I think about it more often than an average person would.  That might sound terrible but it’s really not.
It’s led me to appreciate things in life a lot more. 
I also don’t waste time on people, things or events that I really don’t care about.  I never feel obligated to do something.  I have a lot of friends who feel like “arrey, they called me to come somewhere so I should go even if for a little bit na just to show my face?” (ok they don’t talk in that Mumbai accent but I couldn’t resist I love talking like that in my head teehee).  I NEVER feel like I “HAVE” to go somewhere.  If I want to go, I’ll go, if I don’t want to go then I won’t, I don’t feel obligated. 
I don’t like to waste time on petty things.  On my time off which is rare – I really want to
a.) accomplish the things I didn’t get to do because I was working which could be errands/blogging/watching movies/side jobs etc.
b.) spend time with family
c.) spend time with close friends that I see all the time
d.) spend time with the friends that don’t hang out with daily in the same circle of friends
e.)  chill.
I guess I’ve just aged prematurely or something, I imagine myself thinking like an old person – that death could happen at any moment to anyone and so you really do have to live life now and most importantly you shouldn’t  sweat the small stuff.
When people piss me off or do things that they shouldn’t I do get mad but I just think to myself – if they died tomorrow would this really matter?  99.999999 percent of the time it doesn’t freaking matter and so I move on.  The problem though is that the other person doesn’t have that morbid way of thinking so for them they just did something terrible and then I just continued on as per normal so they were never really “punished”.  That’s kind of a bad thing but I guess I just think that it’s fine as long as it doesn’t happen again.  Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me.  So if you piss me off once about something – say you forgot my birthday – it’s not a big deal.  I won’t sweat the small stuff and you won’t have to bend over backwards to make it up to me, but if you EVER forget again ….woman_yelling_at_guy_051909_m lol poor guy.
I think of death and it helps keep things in perspective.  It helps let me know what is important and what isn’t but one shouldn’t think of death all the time.  There is a lot of life to live in this world, and sometimes people sweat the small stuff because they think that time is running out.  RELAX!  Life is a lot longer than we make out to be (it’s our memories that are short).  Martha Stewart was like 40+ when she published her first book, then finally came on TV in 1990 I believe (she was born in 1941) which was when she really became a home making expert so she was almost 50.  So…there’s plenty of time in life to do everything you want to do (but that’s no reason to delay – I’m just saying don’t sweat the small stuff).
Alrighty!  Remember – think of death, and at the same time, think that you have plenty of time to live.  It’s typical oxymoronic Sharin way of thinking and I think it works.  Don’t sweat the small stuff because you or people could die any second, and don’t freak out that life is running out because there’s tons of time to accomplish your dreams.

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Saturday 30 July 2011

On Blast/Creepers

I’M WARNING YOU IN ADVANCE THIS IS A REALLY WEIRD BLOG POST.  I’m a very hypocritical / oxymoron type of person.
So.  Facebook/Twitter/Being part of a minority community where everyone kinda knows one another and if they don’t they’ve seen your picture off someone else’s fb profile – it seems like everyone is a creeper these days.  I am sure quite a few of you will relate to what I’m about to say below!

Lately it seems like every time I go out someone either texts me a “hey what are you doing on 92” or messages me on Facebook after (EVEN WHEN I’M ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COUNTRY - (Toronto!) haha but I guess that’s understandable) or comes up to me 2 days later with how some random people at a random place who knows that that person they are talking to knows me mentions that they saw me somewhere to them.  What I really hate is the “hey were you at Walmart the other day?”.  Um… yes.. probably?  “Oh that’s so funny I swear I ALWAYS see you at Walmart!”… 

It makes me want to throw my phone at a wall and walk around with a scarf on my face. Like WHAT?  WHAT DO YOU MEAN?  WHO ARE YOU?!  WHAT DAY DID YOU SEE ME?  N then I sit there and try and flashback like what was I wearing?, who was I with? Was I doing something stupid… of course I was doing something stupid I’m ALWAYS doing something stupid (dancing, playing with a toy, making funny faces etc) and I get into this intense dialogue with myself about how I should behave more normal in public.
Heheahah actually… I DO WALK AROUND WITH A SCARF TO MY FACE.  Not because I think I’m nuts, but just because I feel cozy and I like the smell and feel of my scarves.  I ALWAYS wear scarves.  They’re like a teddy bear or blankets.  I just find myself randomly doing that and then I realize 2 min later and I’m like “oops”.  Plus I feel cleaner like I’m not actually breathing in pukey public transit smells (I’m on public transit a lot) and I feel like I’m getting less UV rays.
I don’t understand why people feel the need to message me asking me if I was at X or Y location.  If you SAW me there, then why wouldn’t you just say hello in person?  If you don’t KNOW if you saw me there because you don’t really know what I look like in real life then should you really be messaging me in the first place?  I’m a friendly person, please, if you see me, just come say hi, don’t message me on Facebook or Twitter after.  It makes me feel weird to know that someone watched me when I didn’t know they were – I would really just rather not know.
I add everyone who sends a friend request as there was this one time where I had to accept all friend requests for a Much Music thing I was trying out for a long time ago:

and ever since then there was no going back and finding alll the people and deleting them - its insane so I’ve just put everyone on a list and accept everyone espesh because I don’t have a lot of personal things on there anyway.  If I hadn’t wanted to be a broadcaster or whatever then I would have just kept my fb to family and friends.  But then I see a lot of people who have like 1000+ friends and I’m sure they go through the same thing I go through but I’m just like I actually wanted to be in the public eye – why in the world do you want to be on blast if your career choice is like – teaching?  Lol.
It’s great when it comes to helping increase stats for my blog and to be able to connect and have a bigger platform to communicate but it sucks when you get weird messages.  Like it’s SO CREEPY to know that someone out there saw me somewhere and I don’t know what they look like!  I don’t look at people’s profiles on Facebook if I don’t know them.  You can add me but I’m not going to sit and check out your profile page because I’m usually on Facebook on my phone!  So… when people start commenting incessantly or eventually catch my eye and make me go: “Who IS this Pinky Gill person anyway” I click on their page and lo and behold do you know what inevitably happens?
I find out that that person who controls that page doesn't do ANYTHING other than comment or like MY stuff.  Their newsfeed is just filled with what they did on my page :| with one or two comments to other people on there and they usually have under 50 friends.  IT’S STUFF LIKE THIS THAT FREAKS ME OUT AND MAKES ME WRITE BLOG POSTS ON IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
It really freaks me out and I just don’t understand.  Are they fake profiles?  If so why would anyone need to make a fake profile to be a friend of mine on Facebook when I accept everyone anyway?  It’s not like their comments are mean or hateful that they need to hide behind a fake?
Also, some of these people are actual real people I’ve met – at a lounge, or at a dinner.  Once I met someone from a different country for five minutes at a crowded public place and all I gave was my first name (no spelling) and they FOUND ME ON FACEBOOK.  I just want the world to go back to what it was like before where you can meet a random person and have an awesome five min conversation and go “well hey it was nice meeting you” and not actually expect to ever see or hear from that person again. 
Trust me, if I WANTED YOU TO CONTINUE KNOWING ME I WOULD MAKE IT HAPPEN.  I AM A MAKE IT HAPPENER.  I would tell you to add me on Facebook, or I would get your number, or I would give you mine, or we would add each other on BBM.  I’ve been called F1, because I can speed meet a ton of people and network.  Exception to the rule: when I am completely enamoured by you.  Then I am way.  too.  shy.  I revert to the “omg I’m a little Singaporean immigrant chick with big ears” person inside me a
If I am enamoured by you I want you to do the chasing and won’t give you anything to go on because if you were really interested, I’m sure you can put in the effort to find me and I’m probably too shy to do anything about it myself anyway :$
Of course attention is flattering, yes I understand that I put myself in these positions I have Twitter, I have Facebook, I have a blog, I choose to come on tv, but you just think that in your head people will be cool.  The “creepers” that I keep talking about, they’re not crazy dps… they’re “normal” people with lives and friends that just have a creeper streak in them… like me.  I have creeped more people through FB than any of you probably but the DIFFERENCE IS – I DON’T FREAKING MESSAGE THEM LIKE HEY I SAW YOU HERE AND THERE.  I CREEP ALONE.  IN PRIVATE.  SECRETLY.  That is how true creepers should creep.  Learn from me people.
Adios.

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Tuesday 12 July 2011

HERE YOU GO

If someone TELLS you that they talk to me all the time via bbm, facebook, twitter, whatever – IT IS A LIE.  People who I ACTUALLY talk to do not need to go around telling other people that they are super tight with me/talk to me all the time because people who I ACTUALLY talk to are cool, normal human beings with lives.

That is all :)

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Untitled. Like the rest of your life.

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People say where there is a will there is a way.  People say you can achieve anything you set your mind to.  People also say to be careful what you wish for, for it just might come true.
Sometimes in life you find yourselves at a crossroads.  You can choose the easy way out, or the hard way…which way will make you the happiest?
What if your dreams can come true?  What if you had the chance to make it happen?  Nothing in this world is for free, the question is are you willing to pay the price?  For some, pursuing their dreams and living their normal life is one and the same.  I have friends that dream of being accountants, or optometrists and they go about their daily lives while simultaneously pursuing their dream.  Others don’t have it so lucky, they want to act, they want to dance, they want to be lawyers or doctors and they might need to leave the country in order to expedite the process.  It takes a lot of guts to leave behind your friends and family.  It also takes paper.  Fat wads of cash baby.
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For the people who would have to drop their family, friends and regular life - It’s so easy to stop yourself from doing what you want because no one has ever told you that you should, or because you don’t feel pretty enough or because you don’t have the time.  Dropping everything to follow your dreams is insanely difficult and you think, do I just not want it enough, because if I did wouldn’t I have gone for it? 
If you’re sitting there debating on what you should do, I say – DO IT.  Do what you always wanted to do.  Go for it!  At least you TRIED!  Make the rest of your life amazing.  Go for your dreams, eff everyone else.  Eff people who say you aren’t good enough, eff people who say you’re too fat, thin, tall, short whatever.  It’s easy for me to say this but yeah if you have the MOOLAH then do it.  Go for it – life is short but at the same time it’s long if you don’t put your own timeline on it.  You know: “find a guy at age 24, marry him by 26, first baby by 28” etc.  If you actually just LIVE your life and let things happen at their own pace you really have a lot of time!  Live a little. 

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Thursday 7 July 2011

Rant #4


Hello jellos.  Here are a few things that people do that irritate me currently.  If you’re wondering why this is RANT NUMERO QUATRO… see: ONE, TWO, and THREE
Disclaimer:  I am not a hater.  It’s just little odd things that kind of bug me, if you have done any of the following below, woops :) hehe. xoxo
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READY B*TCHES?
SO: PEOPLE WHO POKE ME ON FACEBOOK YET HAVE NEVER ONCE SAID HELLO VIA WALL OR INBOX.  DON’T EFFING POKE ME.  If you have NOTHING worthwhile to say that you can’t write on my wall or message me then don’t poke!  You are so lame, use your brain and think of something…and don’t just say “hey watsup”!  Actually just don’t even msg me (unless you’re really hot. guy or girl ;) I like pretty girls in a non sexual way).
Girls who insist on turning their face sideways to an EXTREME to take a picture (bending their head back).  You look better at a normal angle…knowing which angles are good for you is fine… just learn how to do it so you don’t look weird.
I am however COMPLETELY ok with the skinny arm trick, only because I do that all the time teehee.  (see below :$)
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Girl faking sex positions on another girl = ATTENTION WHORE
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People who automatically start spreading the word when they see someone they know oot and aboot with a boy.  People honestly could just be friends!!!!!!…also -we live in Surrey, not the Upper East Side – if you want to play Gossip Girl you’re going to need to dress better.
People who steal. AKA whoever found my mp3 player SERIOUSLY why couldn’t you just RETURN IT.  God DAYUM people.  :( :( or I suppose I could stop leaving things places.  WHATEVER.  PEOPLE SHOULD STILL RETURN THINGS.
People who stare.  Just. Stop.
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The man who came after me as I was exiting the steam room and tapped me on the shoulder repeatedly telling me he liked me.  CREEPY DUDE LEAVE ME ALONE AAARGH.
Girls with fake eyelashes on in the daytime.  Day makeup, and night makeup = two different looks.  Day makeup does not include fake eyelashes!!!  I’m SORRY I’m all about makeup believe me but this one just bugs me.
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People who tag you in pictures on Facebook that you ARE NOT ACTUALLY IN.  I really don’t get how tagging me in a picture of a poster for an event you’re promoting even helps you at all?
People who msg me on bbm WHEN A STATUS CLEARLY SAYS “NOT HERE”.  You’re just asking for me to think you’re annoying.
People who take an insanely long amount of time to put food on their plate in a buffet line.  ARE YOU LOOKING FOR YOUR NAME TO BE WRITTEN ON A PIECE OF CHICKEN?  EFFING PICK ONE UP AND PUT IT ON YOUR PLATE.  holy eff.
People who say they want to be famous so that they can make a difference in the world yet all they advertise that they do is lie on a beach and go to the gym.  Hmmm… posting inspirational status updates isn’t what most people would consider “making a difference”.
People who go into stores smelling like weed.  One word.  Febreze.  Have some dignity!
People who see a group of girls in a Facebook profile pic and comment to only one person in that picture “omg Xara you look sooo good”.  I mean… HELLOOO … there are four other chicks in that picture.  Can you not just say “looking good girlies”? 
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