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Remember that Britney spears song.. "If there's nothing missing in my life than why do these tears come at night".. ?


I always loved that song "Lucky" as well as all other stories of seemingly flawless people (Marilyn Monroe ex.) with flawed lives.    

Nothing is as it seems.

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We put a lot of stuff out there on social media sites.  I think it's safe to say that we also take a lot more pictures now than we used to now that we're in a digital age and no longer trying to save precious film (24 images a roll - preposterous! Now I take 24 pics for one angle per outfit and then upload the best one ;) lol).  I usually try and post things that are a little out there, to me nothing is ever just as it is.  A quote that I post is really because of something else that I'm trying to reveal about myself (or to someone specific - I've written before about Why I Write ), a picture is an artistic expression and so on.  This is not to say that everything has deep meaning, I mean of course I like every girl, post some pictures because I went out and spent money on a nice outfit or what have you.  We live in a world now where we are all essentially creating our brands and self promoting ourselves to stay relevant if we want to be a part of a career that cares primarily about looks especially (say model or actress).  I've noticed that as time goes on I feel more and more divided as a person and I've noticed it via my pic posts.   I've posted quite a few "mirror" pics where there are two of me or I'm actually looking into a mirror (like above and below).  

I thought it would be cool for me to kind of explain what I meant by posting the pictures and where I was going in my head with them - ALSO just delving a little bit into how women can feel conflicted with what is expected of them.  I'm very into good vs evil, the battle between light and dark.  A few people have asked me "why are you so dark now", "what's with the Gothic pics", etc.. someone actually spent a good five minutes at a party telling me that they understood why I was showcasing the pics that I did on instagram and facebook and explained some of it to me and I was shocked by the level of insight other people had towards my actions - So I thought I would explain some of them to you ...  With more and more people (everyone basically lol) choosing to have a "public" image via social media sites and a "private" one I feel like not just I but a lot of people have these conflicting feelings...hence this post :).  I've written about being an Extremist person before and I've posted a "If you see this girl can you tell her where I am"  post so this is really a recurring issue/theme.

So the above picture was me saying "suck it" to myself... the negative force inside me, that I can be whoever I want and do whatever I want and I don't need to hold myself back as we so often do :).  I was just in a "suck it a-holes" frame of mind.



This picture above is me staring into a mirror again it was kind of a good wife vs mistress type of thing.. the good me is outside and I'm kind of observing someone else in the reflection.  I originally wanted to photoshop the girl in the mirror to be wearing a black dress but I didn't know how to do that lol.  (Just realized I wrote "girl in the mirror" as if it's a different person lol fml.) The picture was originally posted on Instagram with the lyric "Je main tenu andar doonda te baher kisdi maya" which means "If I'm looking for you inside than whose reflection is outside" and it has to do with God and Love as well.  The lyric originally says If I look for you outside then who is residing in me, if I'm looking for you inside than whose reflection is outside". The reason why I chose that lyric is because I mean it in the sense of a love lost/found as well as God lost found and the struggle between light and dark.



I posted some of the pics subconsciously choosing to mirror myself and later as I realized that I've done quite a bit of it I just kind of realized it's because I've actually... I actually feel very divided and like two people. When you're a kid it's so simple, you're just a kid.  You're so pure and innocent and then now with society the way it is it's just this constant struggle.  The struggle to be yourself but to be noticed as an artistic person so essentially the battle between selling out and staying true to yourself, the struggle to be a female and embrace your femininity and sexuality and be bold but also to preserve that and hold that close to you because it's sacred.  The struggle between wanting to be wild and not come home at night and to feel nothing but the pleasure of the music rushing through you and lights flashing vs wanting to be home with family in Spongebob Squarepants pajamas (totally wearing them right now).  

 My friend JUST said to me on Thursday "the old you would never wear that", and I was like "who?", she said "there are so many you's I don't even know which one anymore the new old you, the old old you, the old new you". It's just SO WEIRD that people around me have actually felt the divisions.  I met someone who asked me about what I used to do before working and I explained that I was doing political science at SFU and he was just like wow that's .. so different from who I am now.  He's right, I could never imagine myself being the same person who went to SFU again, I left that place and never went back because I would feel like I was going to my own graveyard.  

The weird thing is a couple of years ago - when I was kind of into this new transition into a newer, bolder me let's just say lol I had a dream (and I don't have dreams) and I dreamt that I was in the apartment my family lived in when I was five.  There were two of me - me now and me when I was about 4 with curly hair and I just hugged the 4 year old me.  It was the creepiest dream I've ever had in my life I have goosebumps as I write this.  The next day I just felt so unsettled.  I think my soul somewhere went to visit an old me or something.  It was weird I tell you I can still see it clearly.

This pic I didn't end up posting actually but I think it correctly showcases the sweet me vs like the demonic me.  I like the demonic/bad me lol haha.  I think all indian women or just all women in general have to deal with what society expects them to be.  We're supposed to be sweet and fluffy and nice and ladylike in the streets and yet also be hot and vixenish.  It's always damned if you do damned if you don't.

 This picture that I took... scares people apparently lol.  It's GOOD to be dark sometimes!

This picture was about stepping into the light or staying in the shadows...also again light vs dark... public vs private.  See.... all so recurring.  N people think I just thought I looked good and posted a random pic.  It's all about artistic expression baby!


Oh Taylor Swift

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Oh boo hoo poor female so hungry for love that she’s desperately chasing after people and being too clingy and the innocent little males who need a perfect woman who isn’t clingy and who fall for her maneater chasing ways are heartbroken when she sings about them after.  EFF YOU WORLD.  I’m so sick of the world depicting women in this manner!

Lately I’ve felt really bad about the whole Taylor Swift thing.  Not because of the usual reasons that people feel bad for her – the string of broken relationships, the poor little rich girl who can’t find someone to love her thing – I don’t care about all that.  What I do feel bad about is that people feel that they can make fun of a woman for essentially having more than one “boyfriend” a year and then singing about it.  Let me just get this straight… people are making fun of Taylor because she' dates amazingly good looking and famous men, she is minting money off of singing about them, and she’s a hot, young blonde with oodles of talent?  Sorry um, did I miss the memo?  I fail to understand why no one is saluting or applauding the girl and are instead making her the butt of jokes!

It’s all because we live in this misogynistic world where women are hated and people have such extreme double standards.  She hasn’t killed anyone, she’s beautiful and has access to places I couldn’t dream of being, why the EFF wouldn’t she be dating around?  I’m not saying that she’s a completely flawless and sane human being; buying houses by your summer fling’s home and suddenly dressing like you’re Jackie Kennedy was a tad bit unnerving even for me, so yes she’s made some poor choices, but to me that is completely irrelevant to the fact that people are not smart enough to see the other side of things or to see that they’re even BEING misogynistic.  I have a problem with people judging other people, especially other women WHILE holding men who do the EXACT same thing in high regard.

Here’s my case for Taylor Swift:

1.) She’s making money, and people like her songs.  She’s a REAL girl who has relationships and her songs actually reflect her life.  Oh but maybe she should be singing about the streets she never grew up on and the jail cells she’s never been in, or how chains and whips excite her because THAT’S cool!  SHE’S A FREAKIN SINGER – HER SONGS SHOULD REFLECT HER LIFE – She’s possibly one of the FEW people who in their actual singing career are being honest while allowing other people to relate to it.  No lie her songs are pretty catchy!  One thing I’ve learnt in life DON’T MESS WIT PPL’S MONEY – if singing about her boyfriends has made her get to where she is, why are people hating?  What do you expect her to do instead like are you going to pay her bills?  You just don’t dog on someone’s career choices when they’re actually successful at what they’re doing because that makes you El Stupido.

2.) If you’re going to date her, you already know what you’re getting into so don’t complain when things don’t work out and you suddenly hear a song about you.  I mean, hello?

3.) Choosing to sing about your view on your own relationships is hardly a crime and the people who are making fun of her (example Amy Poehler, Tina Fey, late night show comedians, Chelsea Handler etc) are people who have made their careers off of making fun of other people so I hardly think that they should be ones to judge.  That makes no sense to me “Hi I make fun of other people for a living but the fact that you sing about your relationships and made your career off of that is DISGUSTING YOU SLUT”.  Right..

4.) In a survey on hollywoodlife.com 67% of people who participated in the online poll said that they LIKED when Taylor sang about her relationships.  She’s an artist/singer/star… she has to give the people what they wanttt goddamit!  Civic duty and responsibility and all that jazz! 

 

I don’t see anything wrong with what she’s doing.  She dates people, the world is interested, she sings about them, she banks millions off of it, she get’s interviews because people care and she’s “relevant”… keep doin what you’re doin sistah!  Hashtag mad props.

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Sup people’s!!!!  Ok SO – I CAN’T BELIEVE I’M FINALLY WRITING!  I just felt it today I felt this ZING like this is a moment that I def have to write about so HERE I AM.  It’s an Oprah kinda blog post like if today was a day on the Oprah show you’d probably skip it if all you care about is celebrity interviews cuz it’s one of those spiritual Oprah show days so skip it if you’re a soul less horrible person who doesn’t care about human emotion (see what I just did there haha suckaa now you gota read it!).

Let’s roll.

Background story:

Today I felt really weird as soon as I woke up, I didn’t even recognize what emotion it was it just felt weird in my windpipes or something.  I realized I was feeling sad as I blow-dried my hair because I suddenly (to my shock) burst out crying.  I didn’t really know why but whatever it’s not a big deal.  So I stopped went on my way, went to the building where I work and kinda started crying again!  At this point I’m like dayum Sharin get yo ish togetha!  It was really weird because nothing had happened specifically I guess it was just subconscious emotion or something but I felt down it just wasn’t a fantabulous day – UNTILLLLLLLLLLL I went to the bathroom to wash my hands :D

So I’m chillin out maxin relaxin washing my hands scrubbin away feelin blue and I look up into the miror to see this CUTE LITTLE BABY BOY in his pram kickin his little feet with his head turned all the way to the left lookin at me in the mirror smiling!  I swear all my sadness - that weird windpipe heavy in the chest feeling EVERYTHING just washed away like I was cleansed by that little angel’s smile.  I walked out of that bathroom on a whole other level and I was just like “dayum what is wrong with you woman like who do you think you are?  Who the heck gave you the right to be sad like do you see where you are?  You are on this freaking beautiful amazing Earth living the LIFE right now just truly blessed and you’re going to cry or feel blue and be sad over what?  EFF you Sharin lighten up – stop and smell the effing roses and smile cause you’re ALIVEEEEE homie!!!!!!”  (truly that’s the convo I had with myself) 

 

Point of my story:

Babies and animals are dope.  Get out of your own head.  Stop and smell the roses so to speak… smile at a baby… touch a flower… touch your grandparent’s hand… smell a baby’s breath… marvel at the world.  It’s shiny and clean and filled with oxygen just for you!

I love it I love the world, I love everything about it and I’m so glad to be here.  People talk about feeling blessed and it sounds so corny but I feel it inside I feel so thankful to be here.  Not everyone is here with me and I still am and people I love are still here and I’m so happy and thankful to God to grace me with another day.  I sound like one of those spiritual people on tv I know I sound weird but this is what I feel.

Babies and animals I honestly believe are like.. angels.. they’re God, they’re everything true and beautiful and divine on this Earth.  When I walked out of that bathroom I honestly felt like God just smiled at me and gently reminded me that I am lucky.  I truly felt a spiritual presence.  I felt like an idiot too I felt like the world’s biggest buffoon that a BABY had to take time out of it’s day and go out of it’s way to smile at ME.  I’M the one who’s supposed to be smiling at the baby!  How wrapped up in my own head and space was I that I first of all didn’t even notice a cute baby in it’s pram and secondly didn’t even see him smile at me until I looked into the mirror? 

I just love babies so much, thank goodness they exist because they teach us so much about life.

So THANK you miracle little baby in it’s pram for making my day so wonderful, you’ll never know what it meant to me but your smile saved me.

Trying To Stay Positive

 

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I’m a big believer in thinking positive and that we can all achieve anything that we set our minds to.  I believe that our minds have powers that are beyond our comprehension.  I believe that we inadvertently or for those who have discovered “the secret” as it’s often called (the power of positive thinking) purposefully shape our own destinies.

I think I was always a positive person and that I always kind of had this sense that I could “make” things happen.  A lot of my positive thinking was just visualizing, visualizing my life in my head – aka day dreaming.  I would very distinctly imagine my future.  On the first day my best friend and I hung out we wrote down and planned out our future and I’d say quite a lot of it came true or what we had thought about and wanted when we were younger came true although of course as we grew older we always wanted more and more. I also wrote a lot so besides day dreaming I would write about my life and what I wanted and believed would happen.  I would sometimes write in a future tense and act as if I was already a famous journalist or hot shot what have you.

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Then there came a time when I wasn’t so positive.  I was so immersed in sadness and negative thinking that I often couldn’t breathe.  I’d throw up randomly (not knowing why (at the time)), I was not able to sleep well, I would wander the streets, I was pretty much constantly crying – at work, on the bus, on the skytrain, waiting for the bus, walking, in my room, in the bathroom, when watching a movie (you get the point) or hyperventilating to the point where I thought I needed to call 911.  I remember an episode where I was in my room and suddenly couldn’t breathe and thus far I had tried hiding it from my family but they found out this time and suddenly EVERYONE in my family was in front of me (including my dad, omgah poor guy), freaked out and scared and trying to help me.  It was a surreal moment and my sister told me that my lips or tongue started turning purple.  The power of positive thinking helped me.

After watching The Secret and meeting people in my life who were positive and really changing their mindset consciously I too changed my mindset.  I believe that if you clearly visualize yourself in the image that you want to be (a successful lawyer for example) and you FEEL that image, you feel the happiness, the power etc you will gravitate towards that and the powers of the universe will conspire to get you where you want to be.  It’s a very, very conscious effort.  It’s not easy to do this and you’ll find yourself slipping and thinking “one day” or thinking negatively.  You can’t imagine that you will be something “one day” you have to feel it NOW or you will forever be that person “one day”.   Create a vision board where you showcase things in a present tense.  “Your car” should not be the car you have now but the car you want and the more you look at that board and believe that that life is yours, the better for you.   I stopped dwelling on anything negative, I used to get so upset at little things.  I used to call up a friend and vent and moan about things and now I literally don’t tell anyone anything.  I may feel bad about something, write it on a piece of paper and rip it up and then I never think about that again.  I only allow myself to be upset for a few minutes and then I’m like ok .. time to move on.  It’s ok to rant and vent every so often as long as it’s not something you’re doing all the time and it’s not affecting your mental health.

It’s not easy being positive and lately I’ve been feeling that the future I once saw so clearly in my head has slipped and it’s getting more and more difficult to imagine that I will actually do what I said I would - so this post is about me trying to get back to the power of positive thinking and saying that I will once again make time for ME, for being positive, thinking happy thoughts, writing powerful quotes and speeches to myself to motivate me and working on my future as if it’s a reality.  I hope you will do the same and please do share with me if you try to think positive – what you do to stay positive – if you’ve slipped on this.  I READ ALLLLL OF YOUR COMMENTS via twitter/facebook and on this blog itself!!!!!!!!!!!  Sometimes your comments are just awesomeness so I just post it and don’t reply because there’s nothing to say cuz you’re right!!  But I do read them all!

I think I’ll write another post later on how to actually feel better and be more positive.  So watch out for that :D

**Side note** You can’t just sit there and think that thinking positive alone will change your life, it is meant to be a catalyst for positive ACTION. 

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Now get out there and KICK SOME BUTT PEOPLES!! :D :D

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 "You did not betray me, you betrayed yourself." - Optimus Prime

It is not my duty to seek punishment on anyone nor do I feel like people "owe me" anything.  If I'm friends with someone I will ask them what their story is - if I choose to believe that we can move on if not than I will move on with my life without them.  It's as simple as that... I don't need to ask around to others to see what the real story was because I believe that if they chose to lie to me - that's on them.  That's their karma, that's their betrayal to themselves as decent human beings and that really is not my problem.  They did not betray me, they betrayed themselves.  I follow my gut instinct.

My theory is I would rather be deceived by my friends than to distrust them.  At the end of the day though if you have to EVEN ASK... it's already over.  That's what I always say.  If you can't trust your friends, or your boyfriend or girlfriend and you have to ASK them "Did you _____" then it's over!! If you really trusted them you wouldn't need to ask them.  WHAT'S WORSE is going behind your boyfriend or girlfriend's back and confronting SOME RANDOM PERSON to "figure out the truth".  I really, really, really do not think that is the right thing to do and I'm shocked by how many people do this!  You can't always have the truth served to you on a platter, you have to use your own judgement.  

Iphone 5 vs Samsung Galaxy S3

 

Since I spent a solid weekend debating between the two phones and harassing everyone I knew to give me their opinion, I thought I would share my findings for those of you who have yet to make the switch to one of these amazing phones.

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I’ll start by saying that I switched from the Blackberry Bold 9900 to the iPhone 5.  I had the 4th gen Ipod touch for quite some time and was never really an “Ifangirl” (die hard apple fan).  I hate the fact that they aren’t universal (much like Sony).  I also was never a fan of their marketing and subsequently brainwashed fan base who shouted about their phones to everyone and anyone, nor was I fan of Steve Jobs (people who blindly admire the guy are idiots).  I was perfectly content with my Blackberry that worked, was amazing at emails and was a real PHONE.  So why the switch?  Well,  I’m still using my bb for contacts and bbm because it’s still popular overseas where a lot of my friends are however I’m a huge youtube and music junky and on my free time at work I wanted to be able to catch up on some videos/tv/video streaming– Blackberry’s are not the device to pick if you want to do anything other than tweet/text/check emails (at least until the BB 10 comes out?!)

Here is my UNBIASED review:

The casing:

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The iPhone 5 wins hands down when it comes to the look and feel of the phone.  It has a sleek glass and aluminum finish whereas the Galaxy S3 has a very “plasticky” and “cheap” feel to it.  HOWEVER the S3’s large and beautiful screen makes you almost forget the plasticky backing.  In terms of sexiness the iPhone 5 just feels sleek, sexy and amazing in your hand.  If you’re big on looks like I am, you’ll prefer the iPhone 5.  The black and gun metal iPhone when turned off is sleek and shiny whereas the white iPhone and S3 have a panda bear look to it.  Definitely go with the black iPhone color, it’s a lot easier on the eyes when you are viewing videos and images (although the aluminum in black has been known to scratch so take care of it).  If you’re all about girly cases you may want to consider a white iPhone (because most girly cases are clear with like diamonds and stuff on it and the clear looks better with the white iPhone) but the black is sexy enough to go BARE, and it just looks like a more powerful machine.  Also, the diamond cut edges, the sapphire glass lens of the camera is superior and … again, sexy.

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Winner: iPhone 5

Specs:

The Samsung Galaxy beats the iPhone 5 when it comes to the specs on paper, it has a quad core processer (which will really come in handy when the new operating system eventually rolls out and you’re able to simultaneously watch videos as well as surf the web at the same time).  The Galaxy S3 also has a larger screen with a comparable pixel density to the iPhone 5’s.  It’s great for older people who might not want to squint at their screen and for those with larger hands.  At first the large phone was intimidating but after a few days it WAS a little easier.  I do have smaller hands and I am on transit a lot (which requires deft manoeuvring and hanging on to the pole – the TRANSIT POLE INSIDE SKYTRAINS AND BUSES you sickos- while navigating the phone with the other hand – something I cannot imagine doing with the S3).  If you’re in the house or in the car a lot or you’re doing most of your phone usage at a desk or indoors than maybe the S3 would work out okay for you – I just couldn’t realistically see myself using the S3 while out and about (clubbing? no way!).  I do tend to drop my phone a lot (ahem back to the clubbing comment..)and the iPhone 5 fared better in drop tests, although I do believe that if your phone is going to drop and break it’s going to smash no matter what a drop test says so I wouldn’t put too much stock in those drop tests.  I found that the iPhone 5’s LCD Retina screen was easier to look at outdoors and that the coloring on the iPhone was more true to life vs the Galaxy that had a slightly bluer tint.  All in all the specs are very comparable and evenly matched – you will be getting a premium device either way – even though the S3 has a quad core vs the dual core on the iPhone, the software on the Android does not make full use of it and so they both run at roughly the same speed.

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My main gripe with iPhone is that they changed to the “Lightning” connector.  I thought that was cocky and unnecessary because one of the benefits was that EVERYTHING from cars to audio docks had the old iPhone connector and now everyone needs to spend more money for this “lightning” connector.  Luckily though, there are enough ifanboys in the world that will immediately jump out and buy the new connector and cars will soon switch to this so in a short while it shouldn’t be too much of a problem to find a spare charger at your friend’s house or whatever.

The iPhone 5 comes in 16 or 32gb, the Samsung Galaxy S3 has the ability to expand by inserting micro sd cards into the phone.  Also you are able to take out and replace the battery very easily on the S3 whereas you would be looking at spending major moolah to replace the built in battery on the iPhone.  If you’re travelling you may like the fact that you can carry around another S3 battery.  I opted for the 32gb iPhone and I know I won’t be needing much more space than that but I suppose it’s nice to know the option to expand is there for S3 users.  Again, it’s all about what is important to you – if you aren’t storing thousands of videos or photos or music on your phone than I wouldn’t worry too much about how much it can hold.  We all still have laptops and desktop computers for a reason.

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Winner: Tie! (as a girl the size of the S3 and where I would be using it made me lean to the iPhone 5 but the fact that Apple changed their connector just pisses me off and so it’s a tie.)

Operating Software:

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The Galaxy S3 runs on the Android platform with it’s current “Ice Cream Sandwich” vers slowly being upgraded to the new “Jelly Bean” vers – it’s completely customizable and fresh.  It’s one of the main reasons I considered the S3.  The iOS on the other hand has been around for quite some time and for those who have used iPhones since they came out – the novelty of the little app buttons and slide to unlock feature have kind of worn off.  This is a huge reason for people switching from Apple to Samsung – the ability to customize your phone.  I absolutely loved the Samsung home screen, it was so large and pretty and the clock/weather feature as well as the different widgets and apps were amazing to set up and play with.  Both Google and iTunes have thousands of apps and although the iPhone is in the lead here, Android fans are slowly catching up in numbers when it comes to available apps.  If you’re not that tech savvy I would stick to the iPhone, customizing the features on the S3 can be a little intimidating and time consuming but if you LOVE customizing stuff I would go for the S3.

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(L-R: iPhone 5 screen vs Galaxy S3 screen)

The downside for me with the Galaxy S3 and what led me to choose Apple is that I like being COMPLETELY up to date.  iPhone users have apps that are SPECIFICALLY designed for them and they are constantly updating their operating system (yearly) and the apps that are on iTunes.  You plug in or update wirelessly and you’re good to go.  Android users do not all receive the OS updates at the same time and they are not on a systematic schedule for updates.  Android users would do well to remember that while they may have increased the number of apps (especially free ones) that are available, the iPhone has apps that are specifically built for the few generations that have rolled out while Android apps are for ANY Android phone – Galaxy S3, HTC, etc.  That could lead to certain apps glitching on your phone and not working as well as it should.  On the plus side the S3 has more free apps that you can download from various resources such as Samsung’s store or Google Play, whereas Apple users download only from iTunes and they are not all free.  The saying “you get what you pay for” in this instance is true – while premium apps may not be free in iTunes, you know that constant updates for any glitches are systematically rolling out and the iTunes store is trusted – less viruses, less issues.  If you’re mainly going to be using your phone for Facebook and Twitter; you might not be too concerned with apps and you should be ok with the S3.  I’m a little picky.  If you want to connect with your tv, connect with your Xbox or PS3 or download videos and movies you may want to choose the S3 because you CAN do that with relatively no issues (and you can download in the S3 in the background while using other programs) whereas on the iPhone you would need to buy Apple TV.  Initially the iPhone caught a lot of flak for their Maps app but it’s a moot point now because you can just download Google Maps :) (as well as Google Chrome and various other Google apps).

As for customizing the phone – S3 wins for the screen but it all depends on what is important to you.  iPhone users can buy cases and accessories from their phone anywhere and everywhere (you would have to order online for the S3 - they do have cute cases too just not as easily found in stores like LV/Michael Kors/Chinese malls lol etc).  I’m content with simply changing my lock screen image every once in a while (right now its this sexy HD leopard – I love big cats leopard_2-t2 ) .

I believe that after you’ve customized any phone you get used to it and it becomes boring – so while I am a little jealous of the S3 ability to customize the screens I think I can live with buying multiple cases for the outside, and painting my nails to look hot carrying said phone.  I might just stay away from seeing my sister play with the S3 though - - ugh the screen really is beautiful I’ll give them that.

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Winner: iPhone 5.  The Samsung Galaxy S3 has a really cool OS which is customizable but the fact that their updates are not systematic could be problematic.  If you’re really into open source stuff and want to hook up your phone with anything and everything Samsung has the lead but whatever you will want done is possible with the iPhone, you just have to pay (for Apple TV etc).  I just feel secure knowing that the company is so huge and they’re focused on their product – whereas with Android you have multiple phones (HTC’s, Samsung’s etc running on their platform) and even with the Samsung line – there’s the Galaxy S3, the Note 2 just came out and with that much stuff going on I’m not too confident that glitches and issues will be resolved in a speedy manner.

 

Overall

Don’t be put off by iFanboys who shout and boast about their phones.  At the end of the day people jumped on the Apple bandwagon and just went nuts, and NOW a lot of those bandwagoners have jumped on the S3 bandwagon and are claiming that iPhone’s are played out and everyone from a 10 year old to a 50 year old has them whereas the S3 is a more exclusive, new product that will set you apart from the crowd.  I say – focus on what you want and don’t listen to those dimwits.  You won’t go wrong with either phone.  You really need to think about what is realistic for your lifestyle.  If you’re always on the go, running around for meetings and you have smaller hands than honestly the S3 is probably not for you!  If you’re a student and you want a larger screen to review notes and you spend a lot of time in class rooms or hanging out with friends at their house than the S3 might be your new best friend, likewise if you’re a club goer – the iPhone!  Both phones are relatively easy to set up and sync with your gmail and other email accounts so I didn’t spend too much time reviewing that.  I recommend going into an Apple or Samsung store and getting a feel of the phones.  You may find simple things about each phone completely off putting so it’s great to go into the store to manually handle the phone :).  For example I really disliked how on the S3 when you’re in the internet browser and you double tap the screen it doesn’t automatically filter to a page view it just zooms in and you still have to scroll left and right to read the whole sentence whereas on the Safari browser it starts off completely zoomed out and when you double click the browser arranges the wording so that you can just scroll down and see it all in one go.

Hope you enjoyed my review and let me know what you think!  What phone are you using?  (I didn’t include the Note 2 in this review because it’s more of a phablet – phone/tablet – than a smartphone).

IT’S JUST A …


Some people are twisted/read too much into things that I do and are too judgmental.  They also can’t comprehend that people have lives that continue on and that doesn’t mean the past never happened and it honestly just perplexes and baffles me.  HENCE why I’m writing this post because I’m so perplexed and baffled!!!!!  It’s stuff that happens sometimes I notice it sometimes I don’t.  Right now I’ve noticed it so I’ll write about it cuz it’s on my mind.  Ok so lemme explain…
Here’s a story for you.  I had a best friend in gr. 4.  We were cool, she’s no longer my best friend and things DID NOT END VERY WELL… AT ALL.  I still live in the same city so I see her once every 2 years or so randomly.  End of story.  It’s a TRUE STORY.
So now when I see her… am I not going to greet her warmly when I see her, or pretend she doesn’t exist and I don’t know her, or not ask how she was?  Of course I am and have because I’m a nice person and you shouldn’t let small things define a person.  Maybe we just weren’t meant to be best friends, that doesn’t mean we can’t be friendly!?!  I’ve also – believe it or not – gotten over what happened in grade freaking four!!
I AM JUST THE KIND OF GIRL WHO IS VERY …RANDOM AND I DEEPLY APPRECIATE ALL THE WONDERFUL PEOPLE I’VE MET ALONG THE WAY TO BEING WHO I AM TODAY.  I don’t think of things as ending so much as I think of things as having changed.  For example I didn’t end my relationship with my bank I just changed banks.
Going on with the best friend story here let’s just use it as an analogy now... I’m someone who’s PRETTYYYY EASY GOING AND FORGIVING, I don’t hold grudges (unless you like screw over my family or something) and I sometimes don’t even remember what so and so supposedly did or why we stopped hanging out… and I’m sometimes actually a little too absorbed in my goals and vision for my future (that’s my euphemism for self absorbed) that I don’t notice mundane things like someone deleting me off Facebook or that they haven’t texted or called me as often.  So forgive me if I don’t realize that I’m “supposed” to be mad at someone or not talking to someone.  I don’t have that chip inside me I don’t realize what it is I’m “supposed” to do I just do what I want.  I don’t care what it is that YOU’RE doing – maybe you have a new best friend now – good for you – that doesn’t mean I can’t call you if I want and say hey what’s up, how’ve you been.  You can not answer if you want – that’s your choice but if you make a big deal about the fact that I called and tell your mama and your boyfriend that I called and then write little cryptic tweets – it’s a little weird and it perplexes me like um …are you not over this?  Are you not a mature adult?
I truly just don’t get how some people think I just think some people are so messed up it actually gives me a headache.  Maybe some people read too much into small things… maybe I’m weird for being friendly and easy going and impulsive? 
Am I “living in the past” if say an ex something from 7 years ago texts me happy birthday like they do every year and I say thanks and then we proceed to have a small conversation which culminates in us deciding to have a coffee together?  No… I have no desire to get back together with the person or to rekindle a romance or friendship or to do anything other than have a coffee and see how they’ve been and have a friendly 20 minute meeting with someone who once put a smile on my face and nor do I think THEY want anything more than a coffee.  I have time for a coffee it’s no sweat off my back.  Now if people see us together of course I understand they might think differently because they don’t know the situation, that’s natural that’s understandable.  What is not understandable is going around talking about it to Tom, Dick and Harry and going to ex’s friends and saying that ex is making a bad decision and ex needs to stop living in the past.  IT’S JUST A COFFEE!  IT’S JUST A HI.  IT’S JUST A HUG.  IT JUST IS WHAT IT IS.
Sometimes the guy who approaches you at a party and strikes up a conversation isn’t trying to pick you up… they’re just having a freaking conversation with you.  There’s nothing wrong with humans trying to interact with each other.  Some people just genuinely like conversing and connecting with people.  Some people are just so messed up!  Me talking to someone doesn’t mean I’m trying to get with them or vice versa.  I just don’t get how some girls or guys get so jealous or offended at what they think someone else’s motive is.  Some things should just be taken at face value.  If you’re saying hey I hope you’ve been well – it means hey I hope you’ve been well not hey I freaking miss you and love you and think about you all the time.
Sometimes I walk into my old jobs to say hi to old coworkers or managers.  That doesn’t mean I want my old job back, I have a new job.

Faker

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I feel like such a faker.  I think it’s because all my life I’ve liked a little bit of everything.  I’m a jack of all trades but a master of none so when I’m in a certain environment with people of one trade and I’m not 1000% into it like they are I feel like a faker.

Example – I like dancing, bhangra, films, bollywood, writing, reading, journalism, politics, fashion – but I’m not a “fashionista” – I know designers/can spot out who’s wearing what, I’m up to date on all trends but I’m at no angle a fashionista or someone who looks like they love fashion and I don’t live and breathe it the way some people do.  I’m not a “Dancer” the way some of my friends are.. I’d say I’m good but I’m not proper.  Same with everything else – I can write really well I can write articles or stories and I COULD be a journalist or a broadcaster or a writer but I’M NOT.  So what am I is the question?  Do I have to choose one?  Is this what life is all about boxing ourselves and labeling ourselves into neat little packages?  “Hi I’m Sharin and I’m _____”.  Seems kind of boring  to me but at least those people can have a proper like Twitter handle and SAY who they are.  Needless to say my twitter handle is all over the place lol.  So who are you?  Really I want to know!   Leave me a comment!

Ciao!

Crabs in a bucket

Honestly I've written so much stuff on here that I don't remember right now if I've already written a post on this topic - if so forgive me but it's still worth writing about..

Sometimes even your closest friends and family can be crabs in a bucket - its a very blue collar/middle class mind set because it's hard for this social class (that I'm in as well) to take risks and to think big. Sometimes parents, friends - they're just scared, they're scared for you and they want you to be secure, have a nice little normal government job and live a normal life. It doesn't mean that they're bad people! They might act like crabs in a bucket and pull you down and even though they're doing it out of love - it's hard to deal with. Also if you're scared remember that fear is not a bad thing -a little fear is a survival instinct. Just don't let it take over your life.

They say if no one's laughing at your goals, then your goals just aren't big enough. Think big and even if you can find one person who believes that you can do it - keep that person close to you!! Touch base with them often. It might be a stranger, a random admirer on Twitter or Facebook or a friend that you're not all THAT close to...but they're there in your life for a reason. Remember that they believe in you and focus on that. Everything else will come around.

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Shh..

Rumor has it I'm the one you're leaving her for..
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I Am Obsessed – Talent - Carly Rose Sonenclar–X Factor

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            

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I’m currently obssesed with Carly Rose Sonenclar from The X Factor.

Have you read the book The Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell?  It’s a book about different factors that contribute to a high level of success (high as in – Bill Gates, Beatles success).  If you haven’t read the book you really should!  It very systematically breaks down key factors that contribute to success and I for one have always thought about what makes certain people successful over others.  One of the things Malcolm talks about in the book is the 10,000 hr rule and it’s based on a study by Anders Erricson who, according to Wikipedia is “widely recognized as one of the world's leading theoretical and experimental researchers on expertise.” – so in short he’s an expert on expertise (pretty cool haha).  The 10,000 rule is that it takes one approximately 10000 hrs of practice on a specific task to become truly great at what it is that they are doing.  In the book he outlines: "It's not enough to ask what successful people are like. [...] It is only by asking where they are from that we can unravel the logic behind who succeeds and who doesn't.”  In essence he questions whether truly successful people should be idolized or given so much praise because much of what contributes to their success is luck/fate/where they’re from etc vs capability.

Back to Carly Rose – it’s pretty clear that she is an amazing singer.

Carly Rose has oodles of talent and I am OBSESSED with her. I believe she is superstar material and I do think some people are just more talented than others. She has real talent (as opposed to just being able to sing like so many people out there). Her tone is amazing her last run in the song above game be goosebumps, her control and most of all the emotion made everyone else look like they were doing karaoke at a local bar.  Not like the people that she’s up against are losers – they are pretty incredible themselves and I’m rooting for a lot of them but when you see Carly Rose walk out and sing you’re just blown away.  That’s what amazes me that there are so many people out there that can sing, or act or dance or whatever – but some are just BETTER and more talented than others.  There’s a look in her eyes. (I also think her soul is old.. I mean where is she getting all this emotion from it’s freakin insane I tell ya). Besides talent, she’s also had a lot of training – she’s lucky enough to be born in a country and city that is close to New York City where she can go for auditions, she has two parents that are still married and love and support her and put in I’m sure a LOT of money to get her to this position. She’s been singing from a very young age – I would imagine she must have hit close to 10000 hrs by now!

A lot of people are capable .. certain people who obviously have talent on shows like the Voice or X factor make it on to the show but don’t win and then we barely hear from most of them again.  Why is that? 

Take the X Factor – you have a lot of people show up for the live auditions and so so many of them had amazing voices and I just thought to myself that they if given the chance could out sing Beyonce or Adele or whoever.  It’s not just about talent, it’s not just about looks.  It’s about your parents (I think that’s like #1), the community or environment you were brought up in, the amount of time you were allowed to devote to honing your craft, it’s about money, support, ease of access… so many different factors.  There are few people out there that despite everything overcame all odds and not only did they overcome odds they make you feel so much emotion when you watch them – Shah Rukh Khan and Oprah are a few people who are truly talented and superstars rightfully… but then there are others who are deemed talented and everyone applauds them and no one looks twice at any other factor.

If Beyonce or Britney Spear’s parents did not support and help them pursue their career from such a young age – move cities to help them and put their own time and money to get them trained and etc they would be nowhere today.  So when Beyonce talks about how she’s so blessed that God gave her talent – yes she is blessed, yes she is talented, but more than that she was just lucky she had the opportunity and the support (or rather encouragement) to do this from her parents who put a lot on the line for her to pursue this  (not to mention the genes to look so fierce).  There are SO many talented people out there – but talent does not guarantee success. 

 

This video just seems creepy.. and not very genuine lol.  Beyonce is defo blessed – she’s hot.. she’s got a nice family, she can sing, she can dance…but so can other people… I used to love her songs.. but something about her these days just rubs me the wrong way.  Every interview of hers seems fake and I think her and Jay Z are just so sickeningly removed from the rest of society.  They’re so flamboyant with their wealth it disgusts me.

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